i just finished rereading indigos star again, which is a fantastic book, although reading it always leaves me a little melancholy. its a mark of a good writer to be able to influence the readers emotions. just so you know.
We finally got home from argentina a few days ago and i have already lapsed into my old routines that are so comfortable to me. i love coming home to my room with my bear and hearing my loud family discuss or argue over whatever just happened. its fantastic. next year, though, im going to uncg and living away from home for the first time in ages, and the idea leaves me apprehensive. i dont know what is going to happen or who i'll meet or what i will do... its a disconcerting feeling to look around my room at home and realize that im leaving this place that i love next year. i am excited as most incoming freshmen probably are, but at the same time, thrown for a loop.
another thought is i missed him so much and i didnt even realize it until i got back. sunday, i was with my boyfriend all day, and although we hit a bump last month, i got back and realized just how much a part of my heart he really is. it makes me wonder what will happen with us in the future. i know God has all sorts of plans and mine never really match up with his, but i hope and pray that he ends up in my life as a spouse. ah, yes, i know, you're only eighteen or you still have school to think about... but, i still think about these things. is it just me?
Girl. Musician. Confused.
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