:D

right.
schools doing alright. still wildly depressed, but having fun at the same time if that makes sense. :D

Great.

I'm not really sure about this whole college thing. On one hand, I love the classes and sort of love the schedule as well, but on the other I can feel my heart and mind being changed every day. This is not to do with God- I need someone to talk to as I don't talk to the rest of my hall... No, this is relational. It's how I interact with others- new and old friend teachers and aquaintances. I can't help but wonder what exactly God thinks about all the different ways I talk to people.

Lessons went well today, had fun in spite of the distinct lack of roommate.
I know posts are short and boring. I'm sorry- it's all so new and different...

dear...

Dear whoever is reading this,
classes day five will commence tomorrow. its going sort of well. I keep getting smacked in the face with waves of blue, though. it could be something like, my pillow or a phone or a bike or something, but its always there. i hate admitting defeat or even slight gives in my resolve, but its working to be that way sometimes. i miss thomas, i miss mom and dad, i even miss grace...
oh well, im learning.
mariko

i .was. going to blog tonight,

but ive got an 8 oclock tomorrow, so not really.
vernacular is so weird though, just sayin. and im about to go slap someone if they dont SHUT UP.
oh, yeah, im not a morning person. did i ever say that? :D
goodnight!

What would it be like...

What would it be like, living on a plane of constantly new pictures and waking moments, when you never remember the past? Imagine standing on an empty plane with short glimpses into someones life, not sure whos it is, until you ask and its yours...
Rather poetic if you did imagine it... the utter quiet, and absolute aloneness of it all is calming, and appealing to my mind...
Until i tell you that some people do live their lives like this and can do nothing about it. they can't come back, and return to their loved ones and remember that they have children, or know what you do for a living, or recognize your wife or husband.
theres always another part to a story.

college: first day of class

this kid, may i just say, is rather lonely. mostly missing a certain thomas, but for the most part, sort of missing high school life in general. very stereotypical first year, but never the less very, very true. my thoughts are blue, drowning in a blue universe filled with stars all very far away. i imagine that this is how all the stars feel, day to day. must be a very lonely and beautiful existence.

reading a chapter (in a great book called Musicophilia) about synesthesia... i'd love to live in a world full of the color in my mind. granted my mind is screwed all up, but its a beautiful and haunting idea. not that the book mentions any of this, its just the thought that followed... i'd love it there. well, i guess it is my mind.

classes went pretty well today, mostly rather tiring, sort of disappointing, but nevertheless there, so may as well. had adapting russia, music tech, english, and honors seminar. rather boring, cant wait until i have time to give my mind exercise. i feel like im getting dumber and dumber as the time progresses. i really ought to get better at typing... im having issues. >.<

Dorm is nice, im all organized and settled and i quite like my bed. :D its nice. also, we were one of the lucky ones who got ac in our room. i guess it all works out. pictures will be attached, i suppose.



this is my roommate rachel. she's awesome.

ok.

i have been busy in the past few weeks, so let me get you all up to speed. i last left you hanging after i got back from argentina, a trip which i did a pretty good job blogging about every day. since then, i have been to michigan, hung out with various people gone shopping pretty epically, and moved into my new college dorm! tomorrow is the first day of classes and i am no longer in my home town, but my college town now. lots has changed, and im a failure for not posting about it.
so, the week i got home we cleaned the house and took care of bills and such and lazed about for the week. after getting everything in order, we turned our attention to the upcoming trip- the family reunion in michigan, with my dad's brothers and sisters. we had a fantastic week and a half up there visiting with relatives i'd not seen in years and years! came back and i had to turn my attention to college shopping and working and stuff like that. insanity, but it worked out, and by the time i got here i had almost everything i needed. now its the day before classes and we're getting ready for everything... textbooks in order, syllabi printed out, bags packed, etc. im slightly worried about the prospect of working really really hard, but you know. typical procrastinator behavior. it'll work itself out. :D